The Day Has Come

I don't really have it in me to write today.  I've tried unsuccessfully to post 3 different times already.  I've gotten as far as:

Today my brother and his family are moving to California.  I'm very sad.

And then I just start crying (again).  But I seem to be OK right now, so I'll try to put a few of my feelings into words.

Last night we all got together for dinner at my parents.  It was a wonderful evening - not fully of sadness.  There was lots of joy and laughs.  Stu and Mr. Cob invented a new game.  My grandparents were even there to celebrate.  I'll miss these dinners. 

The hardest part of the evening was saying "goodnight"/goodbye to Stu.  We all read him a bedtime story (Toy Story 2) and then he gave his snuggles.  He, of course, didn't know that it was the last hug he'd give his Aunt Ryry for months, but it was all I could think about.  He's such a sweet soul and my life won't be the same now that he's not in it regularly. 

But Mr. Cob made a good point - now seeing him (and B and A) will be that much more special.  We won't take for granted the time we do get to spend together.  And it'll be an "event" to all get together.

I wish them all the best and much love and light on their upcoming journey. 

Good-byes are never easy.  I'm just trying to look forward to the next hello hug.  And hopefully it won't be too far away.