Sleeping Through the Night

Julian turns two in a month and two days. Surely he should be sleeping consistently through the night at this point. But he's not. I know it's my fault that the night wakings continue, but I just cannot handle his cry. He has a raspy voice to begin with and so his screams in the middle of the night are heart wrenching. So I go to him.

I get him out of bed clutching Wubba, his lovey. We go get him "new water" from the sink, at his request. And then we sit in the rocker and cuddle under blue blanket.  I am usually oh so tired during these cuddles. And he falls back asleep within a few minutes. I know he doesn't need me in the middle of the night, but I like sitting with him in the dark room. I like putting my cheek on his soft head of blonde hair.  I like smelling his shampoo and talking quietly to him in the night.

I realize this needs to stop. We both need full nights of sleep. But I just can't do it.