(If you're just joining the show, start here and then go here to read the first two installments of the series of 5 posts I kept before going public with pregnancy #2).
Thursday, December 6, 2012 - The headaches have started. Yesterday to be exact. Repeated today. And all I can take is Tylenol. So yea, my head is still pounding. Oh, and last night I dreamt about scales. The scale in the doctor's office. The scale in our bathroom. Scales were everywhere and they just kept creeping up and up and up. It should be a fun 32 more weeks if I don't get over this weight thing soon.
Wednesday, December 12, 2012 - Over 9 weeks here and still 6 days away from seeing the OB. I'm getting anxious to see the heartbeat and find out that everything is OK. I've been feeling slightly depressed the past few days. My skin is breaking out and I'm too nervous to use my acne medicine even though the dermatologist told me it's safe during pregnancy. I've said before that having bad skin trumps any sort of bad hair day or bad body image day. It is just hard to feel pretty when your face is plastered with blemishes. Thank God for makeup. I might be going to the mall this weekend to buy some extra-coverage goo.
I'm also unable to shake this fear of getting huge again. I've already gained 4ish pounds and I'm just not mentally prepared for the huge ass and legs again. I'm just not. But I'm so freaking tired every day so the thought of working out just exhausts me even more. I've been good about working out on the weekends and can manage to get a few workouts in during the week. I need to start walking on the treadmill at night just to stay active. I think the mental game is worse this time around because I KNOW what happened before. I'm not going into this blind and hoping I gain only 25-35 pounds. Nope, it didn't happen last time so if I want to stay in that range this time, it's going to require some serious effort on my part. I'm really hoping my energy levels perk back up once I'm done with the first trimester.
On another totally unrelated note, the sex dreams have returned. Such a strange side effect of early pregnancy.
Thursday, December 13, 2012 - Ok exhaustion, you can go away now. Seriously, any day would be great. I am about to close my door and fall asleep under my desk. I'm not sure I can keep my eyes open any longer. Hopefully no one will miss me.
Wednesday, December 19, 2012 - 10 weeks and a day here. Yesterday I had my first OB appointment and we were given a due date of July 16, 2012 (which just happens to be one of my good friend's little boy's birthdays!). And even more exciting than learning poppy's due date was getting to SEE poppy and know that he/she is doing OK. I had an ultrasound and we saw poppy's heart beat, a head, butt, four limbs and you could even distinguish the hands/feet! The little thing was moving all over the place and looked a bit like a koala bear. I'm still hoping to birth a baby though. Everything feels very real now! I'm excited and want to shout the news to everyone I see. But I'm going to wait a little while longer for that. My energy seems to be coming back (thankfully!) and I haven't felt sick. I wouldn't say I have much pep in my step but definitely doing better than I was a few weeks ago. I no longer feel the need to go to sleep immediately upon arriving home.
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