The End of a Search

Well one of our searches has finally come to an end. Our childcare search has ended. And just in time. I go back to work on Monday. As of yesterday we had no concrete plan aside from having my mom fill in as the temporary nanny until we could find a permanent solution. And Mr. Cob's mom had even planned to come in from Chicago to serve as temp nanny #2. And both grandmas are still helping us out by watching Lukas over the next two weeks. But as of today, we now have permanent childcare set up to begin the middle of February.

I received a call this morning from my #1 choice for daycare letting us know that a spot had become available. I honestly started crying on the phone with the woman. It felt like a huge weight had been lifted from my shoulders. The daycare is just two miles from my office so on slow days I can pop in during lunch to see him and get a baby hug from my little man. This helps soothe the pain of having to go back to work after spending the past 3 months with him every day all day. I have conflicting emotions about the transition. I have no doubt that tears will be shed on Monday. I anticipate crying most days next week. But I'm also tying to stay positive and am hoping for the best. And the one thing that is helping the most is knowing that I have choice. I can always change my mind if I go back to work and it's horrible, maybe we will eventually decide that it's better for our family for me to stay home. Who knows. Maybe I'll be happy going back to work and Lukas will thrive at daycare.

I'm just going to take it one day at a time. You can't always plan for how the future will turn out.