Enough about the little dude for a minute. Let's talk about me. (Egocentric? Yes. It happens.)
So what have I been up to? (I'm assuming you've been wondering this. No? Ok, well, whatever. Just go with it. Or stop reading. Either way.)
I'd say that right now I'm still identifying most with the title of "mom". I feel like I'm finally comfortable in this roll and actually good at it. I like taking care of Lukas, I like every aspect of being a mom so far. Even the dirty diapers, laundry and other mundane tasks. Mothering is definitely one of the things I was meant to do in this life. I'd be lying if I said I don't get frustrated, mainly when I'm in the middle of trying to soothe a teething boy or cleaning the poop out of the tub, but even those are things that I find joy in. Because they're all for this little guy. And he's just so cute and in this great stage of learning and changing so much right now.
But I said we weren't here to talk about him.
I'm still working full time. I'm now in my 5th year as a lawyer, at the same firm I started with out of law school. Most days I love my job. The people are what make it great. My boss is understanding and respectful of the fact that I have a family, and because of that, I have a more positive outlook towards work and don't mind working in the evenings and weekends, if need be. I leave work at 5 on the dot most days, which gives me a few hours with Lukas in the evenings. But it's hard to juggle work and home life, especially when I'm busy. I've been getting in the office around 8 every day, working until 5 and then about every other day I end up working a few hours at night after Lukas goes to bed. This leaves little time for housework, leisurely activities, friends and even Mr. Cob. Time management and trying to do everything I want to do is the hardest part of being a working mom. I usually feel like I'm neglecting someone or something in my life. Often, that someone is myself. I'm having a hard time fitting in exercise time, which is something that I enjoy doing and something that makes me feel good about myself. And if I do find time to exercise, that's time that I'm not able to spend with Mr. Cob. And time with him, especially alone, is hard to come by these days. I still don't know how some women do it all, and make it look easy. Because it's not. But I'm trying to figure it out as we go and not beat myself up in the process.
While I can't find too much time to exercise, I have managed to lose ALL of the baby weight. As in all SIXTY FIVE plus pounds of it. And then some. (But let's not mention the fact that I've lost a ton of muscle tone too...). I was doing Weight Watchers, and am still signed up for it, but have been bad about keeping track of my points the past two weeks. WW definitely helps you realize what you are eating and change your habits as needed. But the other reason I swear I've been able to get rid of this weight is because I'm still nursing. I really believe it's helped me get the weight off. I'm almost at the 11 month mark of breastfeeding and plan on continuing until Lukas is one and then cutting back or stopping altogether. I've heard that your body drops another 5ish pounds once you stop nursing, so that'll be a nice plus at the end. I would like to tone up and get some muscle definition back, as well as work out a few times a week. Now with the cooler weather coming in, I can take Lukas out in the jogging stroller and hopefully get back in to running. And it really does feel great to fit back in my clothes again. It may have taken 9-10 months to drop the weight, but that's how long it took me to gain the baby weight and I'm not a crazy celebrity non-eating woman, so I'll take the 9-10 month time frame. And the best part, I not only have my old, thinner body back, but I now have boobs to go with it. Maybe I'll never stop nursing...Just kidding. Maybe.
Well that's enough about me for now. I'm sure I'll write about the little guy again soon. I just can't help myself. I'm obsessed.